Where do I begin? I use to dream of what it would be like living a life where I was 225 lbs. again! I would think about what people would say seeing me a normal weight! I use to think what girls would think of me being a normal weight, would they like to go out with me then? As I look back 10 years ago I saw myself as this overweight person who thought no one liked him other than his family – other people where only being nice and really didn’t want this person being around. I would make many assumptions and untrue facts about myself that never existed in the real world – but they surely did exist in my mind as being reality! Those days of my life are now far behind me and I am so very happy to be where I am today!
Before talking about where I am today I would like to say a few other things first – The way I coped with my feelings of thinking how unimportant to the world was by eating and buying things! So what kept me going in life during those years? I can truly say it was mainly my family! By developing a great relationship with my family they gave me that spark to live my life no matter how hard it became! I knew we all need to go through trials and challenges in life. What also kept me going was work, reading the scriptures, praying and attending church! I thought this was what life was all about, being full of trials and challenges! I always thought I would be this way for the rest of my life, however long I lived my life!
As time went on Heavenly Father (God) would send people to me to talk to me about how they were concerned about me being overweight! Again, in my mind they were only being nice to be nice so I would give it a try to eat better for about a week then I would fall back into my old habits of feeling unimportant. After listening and watching General Conference about 4 years ago (where members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints listen to our living Prophet, Apostles and other church leaders speak to us on a variety of spiritual topics) I made a commitment to myself I would make it a point to go attend church weekly in the area I was in living (instead of going other places) and get to know the people in my area. It was hard at first as I was still thinking in my mind that people looked at me and didn’t want me there but I knew I needed to attend no matter what I was feeling or thinking! Doing this small change started the processes of how I was feeling and thinking about myself. I started to get to know people and eventually some of those feeling of not being accepted started to melt away. As time went on I started really reading the scriptures instead of just reading to say I read them. I started to praying with meaning instead of going through the motions of saying the same things every morning and night! Slowly I started to realize I made a difference with people and it was important for me to be living. I had become numb to things I learned and knew growing up! Most importantly, knowing I was not alone in this world! I had family members, friends, church members, church leaders I was able to turn to for help. Most of all I had our Savior Jesus Christ I was able to turn to as he knew and knows what I was going through. I finally got I was not alone and I could make a change in my life.
I finally got to the point I wanted to change and start losing weight. There was so much more for me to do in life and the way I was living who knew how long I would live for. So I set out and made a goal to lose weight! This process started may times! I would start then fall back to my old habits. After trying and praying for the help needed I gave up hope and thought to myself, “God will only take me from this earth when it is my time to leave!” so I stopped trying but continued to asked Heavenly Father to help me lose weight. One little problem with this was I was not doing my part so how could God do his part if I was not eating good healthy foods?
I finally came to the realization of what I needed to do – I needed to do my part for Heavenly Father to his part! But what? On September 2, 2014 I made a goal to start eating clean for the month of September after seeing a post on a social media group. By creating this goal, I told everyone I could about it and even created this blog site to keep track of my accountability!
Today I am now living that dream I use to dream of being fit and healthy! Once more, I am now far below the 225 lbs. I thought I would never reach back in those days! I am now just a couple of pounds’ shy of being my final goal weight of 185 lbs. It is much different than I ever imagined and assumed it would be like. I didn’t need to go somewhere for a year to lose the weight I did it all while living and working among my family and friends! People saw my transformation so they too were part of my transformation!
The other day I went to the DMV to get a new drivers license as the picture and weight on my current license is now old! As I am going to start traveling more I needed to get this updated as the person on the drivers license does not look like me anymore! Everyone at the DMV were so proud and happy for what I had accomplished and some asked how I did it so I shared with them my story.
I’ve now created a new goal! I’ve registered to run a half marathon on April 1, 2017 to be located at Zion National Park – Zion Half Marathon. For those who would like to join me and be part of team ProHealthLiving.org please send me a message so I can give you the details needed. By registering and telling everyone about this I am making it a reality and a dream I will soon accomplish! It is also a dream of mine to run in a marathon and know I will too will be accomplished one day! There are many other dreams and goals I am planning on doing especially with cycling, traveling, living life, etc.
Make life what you want it to be! Anything is possible and can be accomplished if you make the effort. Start by making small goals to reach your ultimate goal! Things do not happen overnight! It takes time…
What is your dream in life? What can you start doing today to make this dream a living reality? Make small goals and start reaching those goals now! You are not alone in reaching these dreams or goals! Like me, I had a dream and shared it with others, enrolled others and I am living that dream today of being healthy physically, mentally and spiritually! Ask for help! I am here to help and listen if you need someone!
Love you all!